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11:12 pm

So. . . I hesitate to say that Charlie has been sick because I feel as if we are battling this yucky sinus/congestion thing nearly every week. I’ve paid out a bunch of co-pays and he never has a fever and never has an infection. He’s always just an irritable, snotty, funky mess and it lasts a few days and then it’s gone. Not surprisingly, when it’s cool he feels better and when it warms up he feels worse. I think it’s pretty clear that the kid is an allergy-fest. I may risk one more co-pay and see if he’s old enough to take zyrtec or something. I don’t like the idea of drugging my kid, but he snores like an old man and it’s effecting everything else, so I think it would be worth it if we could put a stop to it.

Anyway, why am I whining about my kid’s allergies? Not because it’s interesting!

You see, on Monday we took Charlie out in his gait trainer (walking contraption). Quick aside here, when I first heard the word gait trainer I HATED it–I have no idea why. Moving on! So we took him out in his gait trainer and for the first time ever he was actually taking steps on his own. Just one step and then with a little help the other step, but this is a huge improvement over his previous work. By the time we finished the session his therapist was wondering if we should order him his very own gait trainer, so he isn’t dependent on a loaner.

Well, on Tuesday the congestion started and he was so irritable and weak on Wednesday that I could barely get him to sit up right in his high chair, which is never a problem for him. Every time we put him in the gait trainer he just sagged it in it. Le sigh.

Now I’ve let him rest up and we’ve got a cold snap coming, so hopefully he’ll be feeling better soon. In the mean time, I WANT TO PRACTICE WALKING!!!!! I am so impatient and I’m at the point where I’m dying to take a little video of his foot action, and he’s just not sleeping well at night and this makes his pretty uncooperative during the day. Seriously, has a person ever died from impatience?

So, my baby’s first steps:Yay!

Allergies:Bah!

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On My Mind

11:05 pm

My To-Do List is threatening to take over.

On my mind today:

  • Trying to cook more healthy meals for my family
  • Adding more categories to Charlie’s intellectual program
  • Sending a long-overdue e-mail to an old friend I found on Facebook
  • An unpaid writing gig I’ve agreed to (details on this coming soon)
  • Inventory for my business

This doesn’t include stuff like paying bills, washing dishes, ABR, or Charlie’s other therapies. I’m trying not to hyperventilate, but I am feeling a TAD overwhelmed.

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Writing When You Don’t Feel Like It

6:17 pm

I feel like death is following me around.

It isn’t, of course, but I’m still feeling the presence all around me.

My grandfather was given six months to live a while back and his health started to really decline in the beginning of December. He doesn’t want to eat and his hospice care taker thinks that he pretty much needs to stay in bed. When a man is as old as he is, you know he’s going to die. That isn’t making it any easier on my mother. Truthfully, I’m more worried about her than him and I worried the whole time I was lying around the hospital with Charlie.

Then, yesterday, my SIL’s father died. She’s only like twenty-five and her mother died at this time of year last year. I know they were a little older, but neither of them were seventy or anything. He was here one day and the next day he was gone–they suspect he had a heart-attack while driving. I feel terrible for her–she has one brother and the two of them are going to have to deal with things like inheritance or probate, funeral arrangements, selling his house, and who knows what else. Yuck, Yuck, Yuck.

I’m a pretty faithful person and I don’t worry about people after they die. I do spend a lot of time worrying about everyone else, though. Death is always an icky process whether it’s quick or drawn-out. There are so many details and I can’t imagine trying to handle them when you’ve got a huge loss to process as well. Even if you have a lot of faith, I think death is hard on the living both emotionally and mentally.

What a great holiday.

On a lighter note, I guest posted over at Ellen’s and it should have gone up yesterday (Jan 1st). Check it out!

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