Self Discovery A-Go-Go

The other night I tweeted about this briefly, but in the last few weeks I’ve had one of those uncomfortable personal revelations. I’ve never figured out exactly why it’s so easy to see things in other people’s lives while being completely oblivious to your own. If you figure that one out, let me know.

Well here’s what I’ve realized: I am not an entrepreneur.

If you know me in real life this is ridiculous. Of course I’m not an entrepreneur. OF COURSE. I don’t like business. I don’t like money. I mean, I like having money, but I don’t enjoy extracting it from others. I derive very little pleasure from earning money. I know I NEED it to live and eat and whatnot, but I was totally the girl who found three uncashed checks in her drawer when I finished my last job. I’m not motivated by money. I often work for free and love to volunteer my time.

But I love entrepreneurs. Adore them. I love people with ideas and passion. I love people who are making their dreams come true. I love people who work hard. I love innovators.

Sadly, however, I don’t think I’m one of them.

I actually think I might be–gasp–a creative.

I know.

I am so resistant to this idea. I think of creatives as the type of people who can’t be depended upon. They are flaky and always late and have no common sense. I like to believe I’ve got common sense. It’s OK for other people to be creative, but me? No, sir. I’m way to level-headed for that.

There’s also that whole thing where being creative means putting yourself out there. You can hide a little with paint, but writing? I have always felt rather firmly that I am NOT a writer. Writers are smarter than I am. Writers are better at grammar and writers probably don’t read detective novels. I’m pretty sure they sit around reading Proust in their spare time. I’m also sure that writers did not get B’s in English like I did.

But here I am (starting a sentence with a conjunction) typing away on this keyboard day after day.

I’m not an entrepreneur, but maybe I’m a writer.
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Comments

  1. Bugladynora says:

    Very interesting and I can relate! I had to say that when I quit trying to have my own full time business. Hobby is okay for me but I had a hard time charging people for my service.

  2. You’re definitely a writer Katy. I love reading your posts. Take it from a (newly minted!) author! (Yeah, I only just today gave myself permission to use that term to describe myself.) 😉

  3. Haha… I’m pretty sure I’ve referred to you as “my friend, Katy, the writer”.

  4. You are definitely a writer.

  5. Of course you are a writer and a fabulous one at that.
    and there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a creative. Not all creatives are flakes, lazy or late. I know quite a few who are punctual and kinda OCD with it too. and God know there are a few entrepreneurs that have their flakish moments.
    Not an entrepreneur either. Right now I have a graphic project that I am not charging for didnt even enter my mind to charge and you know I am a SAHM LOL.

  6. Creatives, the type of people who can’t be depended upon??
    They are flaky and always late and have no common sense.

    But if you think of all the successful companies, if the leaders were not creative they could not have been successful. I agree that being too creative can be a problem but I think it gives creativity a bad reputation unjustly. All creativity is not the flaky type, only some types of creativity is but that type of creativity seems to get the most press.

  7. OH I am definitely NOT an entrepreneur, no way! I like that you are coming to this realization for yourself. :)

  8. As somebody who teaches creatives about money in the music industry program @ Loyola, I can say that they’re not inherently exclusive. It’s just about what drives the train. Are you creating so that you can get money, or are you creating because it’s you have no choice but to be a vessel for the message that the world needs.

    Read “Do the work” by Stephen Pressfield, anything by Seth Godin (maybe start with Linchpin – All entrepreneurs are artists and all artists are entrepreneurs), and Making Ideas Happen by Scott Belsky, if you do want to make a living as a creative. Great stuff in all of them, and quick reads.