Not So Bad

What She Wore: I won’t bother you with horror that was today outfit. It wasn’t pretty.

What She Ate: Chicken noodle soup for lunch; turkey and stuffing for dinner. And a lot of cookies.

After Charlie was born, I had all these fears. The biggest of the bunch was the fear that I would never be the same again. I felt like the wounds were too deep. I just didn’t know how it would be possible for me to feel completely happy again. I would wistfully think about the days before Charlie was born–before I knew how hard it would be. I couldn’t imagine feeling that carefree again. One of the things I specifically remembered was dancing in the kitchen. For years I would blare the radio and just boogie down in the kitchen. Especially good days would be those where Hub would join in. We’d just dance in the kitchen like two fools. How could I ever be that happy again? That girl who danced in the kitchen didn’t know anything about hospitals and children dying; she didn’t even know what cerebral palsy was.

I’m going somewhere with this, I promise.

Tonight I strapped Charlie in his stander. While he’s in there we have to come up with things to keep him entertained. We’re also trying to add time–we’re up to fifteen minutes. You can only push the kid up and down the hallway so many times when you’re doing it for fifteen minutes. We played with some toys, but he loves to move around. After pushing him down the hallway for the zillionth time I came up with a new plan. I cranked up my iTunes and started wheeling him this way and that to the music. I after grooving to Shake It by Metro Station I passed him off to my husband to give my back a break. I couldn’t resist shaking my bootay to Cupid Shuffle, though. So there the three of us were, in the kitchen, dancing. It struck me that this was one of those things I was so worried about. Would I ever dance in the kitchen like no one was watching? Yes. It may not have been exactly the way I pictured, but I was in the exact place I wanted to be.

Good day.

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  1. Nadine Hightower says:

    Where’s the video of that??

    That is a great idea…dancin’ in the kitchen. Good upbeat music is good for the soul!! And it could cause weight to come off.

    Excuse me, I’m off to dance in the kitchen!!

  2. That made me tear up a bit. I’m so glad y’all are all dancing in the kitchen together. (SNIFF)

  3. I’m with Jen…but not quite snotty/teary because I’m just to darn happy for you. I also agree w/ Nadine you need a video of that so when you get down like the other day you can watch it!!!!! :o)

    AND the CAT! YAY! When I lived in Gretna I had this cat named Boca, he talked a lot. (Boca=mouth in Spanish) He would disappear all the time, I finally saw him come home from my down and across the street neighbors. Later that day I spoke to the neighbor, “Hey my cat has been hanging @ you house?” she said, “Yeah he eats a ton. We call him Mouth.” I loved that cat. Just think he told the people his name, so smart…lol. Now I have the mini-poodle Ruby…my husband is allergic to cats…sigh.


  4. Leucantha` says:

    I am a little misty too. I am so glad you were able to enjoy that moment, those are the ones that make parenting so special to me.

  5. Hey, you got a great little family and a cat who did infact remember where his home really is…what’s not to dance about? Here’s to more good times in the kitchen with Charlie–he must really get a kick out of his parents.~Toni

  6. Ya I too want to see the video of that :)

    That’s just too cute, the three of you dancing away!!

    Did the cat join in too to celebrate his having found his way back home??

  7. so i leave for a few days and the cat is found and you get your groove back…it sounds like things are really coming together for you…i like to dance around the house too and i hope that i never lose that…maybe i can pass it on to Chuck??

    ♥~♥ :oD the shortest distance between two people is a smile… :oD ♥~♥

  8. Haz Bien says:

    I love that! What a beautiful post. That’s a great one, Katy!

  9. Tiffany Morris says:

    That is awesome! Don’t ever think your life will end… it may be changed a little, but it only gets better!

    Hugs – Tiffany

  10. desperate housewife says:

    How beautiful.

  11. I’m so glad Max is back and the dancing. I remember so clearly my resolution after Loren was born to stay the same, to live the same to defy everybody who said: You will never again be able to….

    And at first, it is hard. Then one day, you find yourself dancing in the kitchen and you’re NOT the same girl anymore. You are far far better.

    Great post.

  12. Rural Felicity says:

    Fantastic post! :)

  13. This puts a new spin on How Katie Got Her Groove Back.

    I like this real life story much better.